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Thursday, July 31, 2014

The pick me up I've been praying for.

I'm not sure why but for the past few weeks, months I'm not sure anymore I have been in such a spiritual rut. It takes everything in me to get dressed and ready for church on Sunday. I have to remember to pray in the mornings, and reading my scriptures feels like such a burden. I don't like it. I keep going thru the motions but that's about it. If you know me, really know me you'd know I pray almost constantly. In my head it's like a never ending prayer keeping an open conversation with my Heavenly Father. So this last few weeks I've been praying and asking what can I do to get out of this? Today I got a little answer. 

I watched this video and my heart was full again. I'm human and this isn't my first spiritual rut but it's the first time it's lasted so long. Watching this mans testimony and story reminded of when I felt at my most darkness. How I felt with my first act of faith which was a simple prayer. I remember how I felt after. It's so comforting knowing that my answers are always a prayer away. 

"I realized it was part as our condition as mortals to sometimes feel as if we are surrounded by darkness. And even though we feel lost, that god promises go uliuminate the way before us. No matter how long it takes. 

Spiritual light rarely comes to those who merely sit in darkness waiting for someone to flip a switch. It takes an act of faith to open our eyes to the light of Christ."